(For those who feel stuck)
I’m 26 years old, married, have a good, solid job, have a nice house, and two dogs.
A lot of people would call that the American dream. Not that we are loaded by any means, but we have a good, normal life.
So, what’s the problem?
Six years ago, I had a revelation from God that I was called to do full time ministry. At that moment, I knew there was nothing that would ultimately satisfy me unless that’s what I did for the rest of my life.
I began pursuing God with everything in my being. I would lead music, speak, organize mission projects, you name it. I began a tenure of three and a half years on staff at a local church and was so excited and expectant about what God was and was going to do in and through me.
Fast forward to today.
I’m no longer on staff at a church anywhere, I’ve barely completed my basic studies in college, and I’m working a normal job like everyone else.
You could describe my ministry “career” as a failure to launch. Yes, I was on staff as a youth ministry assistant, but never wound up going any farther in my calling. I watched as friend after friend got a great position at a church somewhere or started a ministry while I became stagnant.
Call it fear. Call it being comfortable. Whatever it was, I couldn’t move forward with my calling.
Opportunity after opportunity presented itself and I couldn’t jump. It never felt right.
I wound up stepping down a little over a year ago from the position that I really held onto for far too long.
We switched churches, thinking that would all of a sudden give me clarity on what to do with my life and how to get there. We found a home, but my heart was still in turmoil.
I started to let jealousy, negativity, and selfishness rule my life. I was jealous of those around me who had advanced in ministry. I became negative about things in my life and in my new church. I became selfish in every facet of everything I did.
This became me up until about six months ago. In the middle of two separate family crises, I finally allowed God to humble me and help me see why I never went any farther than I did in ministry.
You see, I was more concerned about my plans and my advancement and disguised my intentions behind “kingdom advancement’.
I realized that nothing ever felt right because it wasn’t the right situation and I was nowhere near ready to take on any opportunity that came my way.
During my time as a church staff person, I had a small ministry that flourished at first, but I soon became a bad steward of what I was over and it fell apart.
It took God six years of basically hitting me in the face with truth about my life for me to finally realize it was ME who was getting in the way.
I say all that to say this:
For the first time in my life, I know not only what I’m supposed to do but how I need to get there. I’m by no means satisfied with where I’m at currently, but rest in the fact that I will fully realize my calling and have no doubt about that.
At this point, I can sit still no longer. Action is necessary. I could deliberate with myself for eternity about what step to take, or take a true step of faith for the first time in my life.
Don’t be like me and be so blind and prideful that it takes years for you to make a move.
Make one now.
Whether you’re looking for your purpose or trying to figure out how to live out your purpose, rest in the fact that God has a plan laid out for you. Don’t fret about what direction to go. If you know that HE has called you, GO.
Don’t try to live out a God ordained calling with human reasoning. His calling and plan for your life is so much bigger and better than anything you could ever create. Give your calling back to Him and let Him orchestrate the details.
Finally, rest in the fact that the sole purpose of our existence is to glorify God and bring others to the knowledge of His glory. Whether you’re opening a coffee shop, writing songs, speaking to the masses, or shepherding a church of 50, your purpose is to bring Him glory.
There, you will find your satisfaction. There, you will find completion. There, you will find rest.
Get up. GO.
And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to His purpose. Romans 8:28